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Cycle 5-CD8

I'm getting anxious to have my ultrasound on Wednesday at 10:00 a.m. I'm really praying that I have more than one mature follicle.

I ordered my #38 swimmers this morning from MWSB. Joanne made a point to tell me that #44 has a much higher success rate. Number 38 was my original pick but has not been available for the past four months. This month there is one vial available of #38 so I want to give him a try.

Today I called the RE's office in Wichita to schedule an appointment. I didn't realize that it would be this difficult to "schedule" the appointment. They are going to send me out a packet of papers and when I have everything completed I send the packet back. If I'm accepted they will call to schedule an appointment. Good thing I started this process early!

Cycel 5-CD 3

I have been doing some research on adding FSH injectables to my Femara cycle. I found a protocol that was Femara cycle days 3-7 and 2 amps of FSH on cycle days 9 & 11. At first Dr. Marshal my OBGYN was not responsive and said in the past he has used FSH but no longer uses it in his practice. After talking to him more and showing what I had printed off the web and had sone a lot of research he said he would consider it if I could find some additional information.

After doing more research I have decided to do 2 more cycles of Femara and then make an appointment to see the reproductive endocrinologist in Wichita if I have not conceived. I have done 2 unmediated cycles using donor sperm and 2 cycles using 2.5 mg Femara with donor sperm. This cycle I'm using 5.0 mg of Femara to see if it will increase the number of follicles. While doing research I found statics of using 2.5 vs. 5.0 mg of Femara. With 2.5 mg you have a 1.2% chance of twins and a 38% chance using 5.0 mg. At this point I would LOVE to have twins and be done with the entire infertility phase of my life. My Dad is a twin and my Mom's Dad is a twin so I would love to follow family tradition. You would think with that family history and add in fertility drugs I would have a chance at ONE baby.

It just amazes me that women who have had a child have absolutely no idea how babies are made and what a complex process it is to actually conceive. My hairdresser, a mother of a 7 month old , made the comment that since I am taking fertility medication and using donor sperm that I should just use all of the sperm and eggs at the same time and just make lots of babies. Hummm.....I guess people just assume that when your doing "infertility treatments" that you are doing In-Vitro & can pick and choose how many eggs you want to fertilize. I have kind of gotten to the point that I don't want to discuss it because it seems like nobody has a clue. I get more comfort and guidance form Internet message boards where I can communicate with others in the same position.

Cycle 5- CD 1

Aunt Flo showed today! I possibly had the worst PMS symptoms this month that I have ever had so it was no surprise that she showed. I'm disappointed as always but I'm not giving up yet.

Back to the real world

Our vacation to Branson, MO was wonderful. We were ready to get back to our own bed and home but neither of us were ready to return to work.

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Cycle 4- 4 dpiui

Ahhhhhh...I'm on vacation for the next week in Branson, MO!

I'm not sure what's going on with my body anymore. Yesterday I had the worst bra day of my life! I have been wearing the same size/style of bras (VS BBV) forever but the last couple of days they are killing me! I got home from work last night and the very fist thing I did was take the damn thing off. I don't want to let myself play mind games that I might be pregnant that this could possibly be a "symptom" but it's so hard when you psychoanalyze every twinge, gas pain, perky nipple...etc!

Cycle 4 - CD 14 Insemination Day!

All went well for Cycle 4 insemination. It's becoming so routine but not a routine that I want to have to continue forever....I want a baby damn it!

Not much else happening, the time change is kicking my butt as it always does.

Cycle 4- CD 13 Positive OPK

I have to say I absolutely hate the way I feel after HCG injections, it makes me mean. I had been kind of grumpy all day yesterday but I kind of flipped out last night. I totally picked a fight with Gary about nothing at all. I feel bad this morning for being so petty. Luckily he is the best guy on the plant and realized that I was under the influence of HCG.

Since we have been first talking about me getting pregnant he has been adamant that he did not want to be in the delivery room when our baby is born. He finally told me last night he passed out when his daughter was born and that is the reason he doesn't want to be there. That was 26 year ago so it must have been really bad. I suppose all I can do it educate ourselves and if he is unable to be there for that moment I will have to figure something else out.

I finally seen a smiley face on a OPK today. I don't know if the HCG injection makes the OPK positive but it was nice to see it!

I'm feeling pretty confident this cycle. The timing just feels right this month. Gary and I are going on vacation to Branson, MO this Friday and I can't wait, we are both in desperate need for some time away. Gary has National Guard dills Friday night, Saturday and Sunday so I will have some time to go exploring that part of the state and have some "me" time. Saturday I am driving to Carthage, MO to visit the Precious Moments Chapel and then Sunday night we will drive to Branson.

Cycle 4-CD 12

Tonight at 10:00 I had to do my HCG injection. I was totally fretting giving it to myself & luckily my neighbor who is an RN was home and she gave it to me. This morning I took a OPK and it was negative.

Cycle 4-CD 11 Happy Halloween!

I had an ultrasound this morning to do a follicle check. I have one dominant follie that is 20 mm. Dr. Marshall and I discussed changing the timing of the IUI to 36 hours after the HCG injection so I will do the injection myself Saturday night giving it time to grow a little more before the injection. We will do the insemination around 10:00 a.m. on Monday.

Swimmers Arrived!

I have my swimmers delivered to my office instead of the doctors office purely for my own piece of mind. After the first month with Fed Ex not delivering on time I would rather know exactly when they are delivered rather than having to call the doctors office & bug them. I work in a small office so when they Fed-Ex lady comes someone always pipes off "Kim your boyfriends are here". It's not like you can have a cryo tank discretely delivered when it says Bio Shipper on the side of the box.

Messed up!

I totally messed up and started taking the Femara on cycle day two instead of three. I'm not stressing over it. Actually the pharmacy messed up and gave me seven tablets instead of five so I'm going to take it days 2-7, we will see what happens.

Cycle 4-CD 2

Today I had a baseline ultrasound to make sure that there aren't any left over follicles from last month. Everything looks good and I got my script for Femara 2.5 mg cycle day 3-7.

Cycle 3- CD 31 - I Really thought I was pregnant this month!

AF was two days late and I was really getting my hopes up, took a HPT and it was negative. AF finally showed up October 21st.

I'm Grouchy!

I don't know what is going on with me I have been bitchy all day long! I feel like I'm totally PMS'ing but AF isn't due until next Wednesday. This afternoon my boobs started hurting like crazy. They have been kind of tingly

I'm Engaged!

Gary asked me to marry him today!

2nd IUI

What a crazy day! My friend Shelly's bridal shower was today at 2:00 p.m. and my insemination appointment was at 1:00. Normally this wouldn't have been a problem but I had to meet the nurse and doctor at the office on a Saturday. I finally got to see what the tank looked like and the semen sample.

Month #2 ultrasound monitoring and HCG Injection

m2/d9
I had an ultrasound today and I had one follicle that was 22 mm on the right side and another one on the left side (unknow size). The nurse called Dr. Hendrikson because she was concerned that I would ovulate on my own. He said to give me the HcG injection and come in Saturday for the insemination at 1:00 p.m.

While I was driving to my doctor appointment Carin called from the office and said my Fed-Ex shipment had arrived. That was such a relief to know that the swimmers and ready and waiting to do their jobs. Swim boys swim! LOL

Everything just feels so much different this time, much more relaxed and less stressed. Geez it could have something to do with the fact that I actually have the semen in my possesion and not lost in Fed-Ex land.

If I were to conceive this month my due date will be June 4, 2009.

Day 1 Month 2

Today was the arrival of good ol' Aunt Flo. I am disappointmed that I didn't get pregnant on the first try but I started with the cards stacked against me after the Fed-Ex fisasco delivering the swimmers. I knew the timing of the insemination was way off but I have been holding out hope for the past two weeks. These past two weeks have been such a long wait. I had pretty much convinced myself that I was pregnant because of all the weird cramping that I had. I must have been fighting something because a couple nights I went to bed at 8:30, I was completely exhausted. I think this month will be a bit easier becaues I know what to expect.

Engagment Ring

I decided to use my marquise diamond form my old wedding ring and put into my new engagement ring. It's a beautiful stone and I think it will look stunning in the new mount. I also decided to get a matching wedding band made for the other side of the ring and have them both put on a the same time. I know it's traditional to get the wedding band put on right before you get married. Since we are not going to have a traditional wedding I want it on now with the other band to make the ring symetrical.

My Dad is considering taking us on a family vacation to Cancun. I would love to get married in Cancun on the beach. I think it would be very intimate and persoanl with just my family. I wish he would make up his mind when he wants to do this vacation becasuse

3dpiui

This two week wait is going to drive me crazy! This week has been SO stressful maining because of the bad timing of the IUI because of Fed-Ex. I have been extremely bitchy it feels like I'm PMS'ing but it's not time. I have had some mild cramping, well I don't even know if I would call it cramping somthing just feels different. I have been peeing more often but then agin I have been drinking tons of diluted Gatorade.

First IUI!

Cycle Day 13

Fed-Ex Semen Disaster

8/11/08 Day 11 ultrasound & triggers HcG

Engagement Ring!

OMG Gary bought me an engagement ring!

I have been really looking on the internet and at Dawson's for rings. I took my old wedding ring into Dawson's to see how much they would give me for my marquis to trade up. They will give me $1220 for my diamond and $723 for the mounting. It's pretty close to what we paid for it but I just don't know if I want to get rid of the mounting. I have been looking at a Nili two tone ring but it wasn't exactly what I wanted so Dana said he could make me one like I wanted. The price he quoted me to remake the ring with approximately .85 carets of diamonds in the mounting without a center stone was $3126. The quote on a round center stone was $7242 for a 1.02 caret and $5082 for a .84 caret.I was browsing the internet looking at rings and looked on E-bay for Nili rings & I found one from Nebraska Diamonds that I loved when I first saw it. I showed it to Gary when he got home and he didn't really say much but I kept hinting around that it was a good deal and I really like it. Monday morning at work I couldn't think about anything but that ring. I kept checking E-Bay to make sure it had not sold and when I went home for lunch I brought it up again & Gary said I could order it. I told him he had to push the confirm button so he did. It should be delivered tomorrow! It has 24 small round diamonds and 10 square diamonds. It doesn't have a center stone but the prongs are for a marquis. I really think I want a round center stone. I had Nebraska Diamond send me prices for a ¾ to 7/8 caret $2500-$3200. That is SO much cheaper than what Dawson's wants.

Cycle Day 23

Why is it when your trying to conceive a month takes forever? I am on cycle day 23 and this month feels like the never ending cycle. I think its just because we will be doing our firt IUI with donor sperm around cycle day 11 or 12 next month. When I start my period I'm to call the OB's office to scheudle a day 10 ultrasound to see if the follicles are maturing. If so, I will be givien an injection of HcG to induce ovulation and 24-36 hours later the insemination will happen. I guess if I'm being so impatient now I am absoutely going to go crazy when I'm in the official Two Week Wait! Gary and I have not discussed wheather or not he will go for insemination? I will not be overly concerned if he is not able to go, with his work schedule of comuting 3 hours per day makes things really hard to plan anyting.

It's going to be really hard not to share my excitment with everyone I know when I do get a positive test result. All of my friends and family know that we are doing the IUI and we talk about it a lot but I would like to keep our little secret for at least a month because so much can go wrong. Anne & Sarah, Gary's grown children don't even know we are planning on getting pregnant so it will be a total shock for them. I guess a lot depends on if I have morning sickness or don't feel well, then my co-workers will know right from the beginning. I want to think of a fun way to tell Gary but I think he will know as soon as I do, he's pretty in tune with my body.

New Running Shoes!

Today I ordered a new pair of running shoes, Asics Gel Nimbus 10.

I'm bummed that this next week is the last week of boot camp until September! I never thought I would get to the point that I look forward to working out in the 100 degree heat harder than I have ever exercised in my life. I can tell that my body is toning up some, I don't think my belly is sticking out as far as it was and my legs feel stronger. I'm starting to be able to feel my tricep muscle again, thank goodness. Karen the boot camp instructor said if we can find four people to do a small class personal training for the next month she would do it. It's $100 for 10 sessions. I hope we can find four people to do it so I can keep making progress at the same pace that I have been. If I do the personal training for the month of August and then start boot camp again in September I should be able to see a difference in my arms by Shelly wedding. I really don't want horrible flabby arms in my bridesmaid dress.

Running with a truck tire!

Friday night boot camp was SO hard, the hardest it has been since I've started the class. We started off running 1/2 mile around the high school track and then we ran the stairs of the bleachers. It was like a flash back from high school gym class...yuck! There are 47 stair and it felt like 147, my legs were on fire but I kept at it and made it for the duration. After we ran the stairs we went to the middle of the football field and picked a tire, yes a truck tire! OK, the fat girls really got screwed in this becuase you had to find a bigger tire to fit over your butt and carry it around your middle. With the tire around our waist we ran to the 50 yard line and back. We then rolled our tire to the 100 yard line. That doesn't seem like it would be that hard but when you try to roll a truck tire in the grass while walking it keept falling down. Soon I learned the key was to get the tire rolling fast and run with it...ahhhhh...so you even have to work HARDER! We then went and ran another set of stairs and went back to doing more tire work. I was sure I would have very badly bruised wrists and arms but they only have a couple little bruises. We ran/walked around the track two more times then it was off to do resistance bands and ab work with a 4 pound weighted ball. After the class was over Nikki & were discussing how much we thought a tire weighed so we got the scale from my house, went back to the high schoool and weighed the truck tire we had toted around....39 pounds!

I'm trying not to get disappointmed that the scale is not going down faster! This moring I was 199.6, I really want to get back to 188 in the NEAR future.

5th Day of Boot Camp

Tonight was the 5th class of my fitness boot camp! It was 101 degrees at 5:30 p.m. and I was pretty sure I was going to die before we even started. You know it's hot when you walk out of the gym and it feels like you have walked into an oven! The class is a lot less painful than it was a week ago! It really is amazing how fast you body will adapt from being completely inactive to working out hard for an hour. It seems like I can run a little farther each day and that is my goal. I supposed if I would run/walk on my off class days that I would progress even faster. My sister asked me to do a 5k race with her this Saturday. I know that I'm ready to even attempt to run 3.1 miles but they are having a 2 mile run and I think I can do it by running/walking it.

4th Day of Boot Camp

3rd Day Boot Camp

2nd Day of Boot Camp

Sperm Donor #44

1st Day of Boot Camp

Ultrasound....ovulating?

HSG Test

LMP- July

First Vist Dr. Henrickson

First OB visit with Dr. Lingurar